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So, here I am writing from my new apartment. Black coffee, Simon & Garfunkel album spinning *Scarborough Fair, currently*, Bank Holiday Monday… life’s actually great. I feel right in my element, and things can only progressively improve moving forward.

The week just gone was one I have been anticipating for a long time (years); I am pleased to say it went as smooth as it possibly could. I am rightfully declared a dual Australian/Hungarian citizen. It feels cool saying that… yeah baby, I am European! My appointment was surprisingly really brief, it lasted about an entire 18 minutes; passport biometrics were taken *clink*, in and out I was!

…I just had to jump up and flip the record, so lost my train of thought… but to conclude on the above overall experience: I am so pleased it has worked out. It was a weight I was carrying on my shoulders for a long time, and I now can finally relax! For something that was technically a given, it was a complicated process – which saw many highs and lows (so I was constantly paranoid and unsure)… for someone that enjoys being as organised as possible, this FREAKED ME OUT. As a result, I think know I definitely freaked out almost everyone that works for the Hungarian Consul …internationally… (they’re certainly thanking this is over, too).

Something else which is a little exciting, it is my one year anniversary of publishing this blog! And I think I’ve posted a whole of 12/13 times? That’s awful… I’m not too great at this, clearly. But guaranteed I will be acting on that. I have so much coming up over the next 12 months, I am going to have to release my thoughts somewhere (and what better place?).

I have four months left residing in B-Vegas (Brisbane), then will be moving back to L-Town (London). I will need to find a job, a place to live, and begin my degree at uni. So, just a few things (it sounds daunting, but you’d be surprised what tricks you can pull from a hat when need be!) Sometimes I get a little ahead of myself, I actually need to stop & appreciate my days here until then. So, signing off – I’m going to do just that…

Ta ta!

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For some reason I’m a little stumped on how to begin this next post…

As a person who genuinely tries to see the best qualities in all aspects of life/people/things, man… life can really stir up shit sometimes, can’t it? At times I don’t like writing so honestly on a public platform, but the truth is I am not gutsy enough to say exactly how I feel in person. I suppose the thing is, if you say something and instantly regret it, you can take it back. People move on and forget about it (to an extent). When it’s written and published, it’s set in stone; the impact it may have can be taken in different contexts and altitudes. I don’t like that tbh.

Over the last couple of days – past week, a couple of disappointing things have happened, which have left me questioning my self worth. I don’t mean to get all heavy up in hurr, but when certain circumstances occur you can’t help but feel a bit crumby and confused about it all. In one instance, I’ll develop a total ‘fuck it’ attitude, and for about a good five minutes feel energetic and destructive… Then I remember I actually care about how I’m perceived, and then just feel really disappointed and somewhat washed up. Who knows, maybe this just sums up what being a girl is like ~ #moody

But in all srsness, I write about how important it is to better yourself and remain optimistic about everything & everyone, and sometimes it just isn’t quite as easy as that. If you don’t have expectations, how can you be disappointed? In my opinion, we should only set bars for ourselves – that way who’s to blame if you don’t achieve or reach what you initially set out for? *Cue Roll Safe meme dude* Just some bitter logic for you there.

After that rather glum and brief summary of my current emotions/situation, I’m sure this week will be super. I’m applying for my Hungarian passport ~two years in the making~, and moving house. So plenty to look forward to! Generally I’ve been feeling pretty chipper recently, in spite of a couple of dud events. Things are looking up and are going to stay up, holllaaaa.

Peace n love

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Two posts in two weeks: a miracle.

It’s dawned on me how quickly 2018 is already passing by. I woke up this morning feeling somewhat shook that it was March already. Then I realised it is in fact not March… it’s April!?

You know when you have that wave of confusion stupidity – well, that’s been the entirety of this week for me. Brain is razzle frazzled, and nothing has even been mentally draining to warrant it to be this way.

Anyway… I am rather excited because the weather has been ever so slightly cooling off in B-town (highs still around 28 degrees celsius). But it’s hit that perfect night-time temp, where you can comfortably wear a t-shirt and not be sweating/freezing to the core. Ultimately, if I had to pick a favourite season it would be Spring. Reason being: the flowers are in bloom and the days grow longer! What’s not to love about that? Unless you suffer from hay fever, then Spring is probably the worst.

I was having a discussion with my sister earlier this week about studies + the woes of mass uni work. Amidst the high demand of assignments due for her over the coming weeks, I reminded her that the temporary* suffering is worth it. No one genuinely reaches the end of their life and regrets having learnt what they did – remember that. I personally feel like I am in the mentality to just begin getting started (better late than never). 2018 is my seventh year out of school you do the math; although I have learnt a great deal of life lessons/experiences, there is still so much I hope to achieve before the clock is up for me.

*temporary although feels like an eternity… I know

Anyway, can’t bear to get all philosophical on your a$$e$. Feel free to inbox me what you’d like to hear/see me write about in my next post. Sometimes I wonder if I should vlog, although I am no Youtuber. It would probably be done in a single take, and you’d then appreciate my writing capability as opposed to an awkwardly shot video. Just a thought though!

Happy Friday 13th,

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It’s been quite a while since I last wrote, and I can honestly say a great deal has happened in my life in such a short period of time. It’s been a rollercoaster of emotion, and so much positive has been bestowed upon me!

I was previously hopeful for change, and as a result – fate has definitely delivered (without sounding like too much of a horoscope)! I’m currently sat by the poolside in sunny Bangkok, listening to George Harrison, coming to the end of a much needed solo holiday away. I think taking time out on your own is incredibly important, and healthy for one’s state of mind. I have been trying to pinpoint a perfect moment to make my next blog entry – when in reality I’ve let it slip down the priority ladder (pls forgive!)

So much NEWS, where do I begin? Well, from the beginning might be an idea…

2018 has been delivering nothing but opportunity and room for growth, which is exactly as I’d have hoped prior to entering it.

After a very PATIENT (and rather stressful) two years, my dual citizenship was finally recognised by the Government officials of Hungary. The weight this weighed on my shoulders over the last 24 months was an experience I pray to never go through again. (Or anyone, for that matter…) When you want something so much, it begins to rule your thought process (& life). I couldn’t see direction beyond this, and that was something that really concerned me. BUT with a little lot of faith and belief, it pulled through on top. My happiness is still beaming, and I don’t think it will subside any time soon!

SO – this was back in February… shows how slack I’ve been… (although how quickly is this year going for the record!!??)

Come March: I composed a portfolio of my work – which was a lonnnngggg time coming, and submit it to a university of my preference (in London). Weeks passed, I did’t expect to hear anything… but low and behold: I have been offered a position! What is this madness I thought to myself? Genuinely couldn’t can’t believe it! I am going to commence studies in September – just like I had told myself I would be. Graphic Designer, here I come. 24 years old/young and I am on route to chasing my dream at last! I told you, if you want something enough and work hard for it… it will be granted. The next three years of my life are going to be challenging, however in the best possible way. Nothing worthwhile comes to you at the click of your fingers, and that’s something I have learnt for myself since becoming an adult.

Allowing to let go of all past concerns and self-doubt from last year, I have been able to take a huge step forward. I feel really grounded and fulfilled, and optimistic generally 24/7. I am so grateful for everything: family, friends, health and new opportunity!

Every time I sign off I mention I won’t leave it so long next time. It’s probably becoming novelty… The truth is, I am just super lazy. Unfortunately it’s not even a valid or good enough excuse. Better out than in, eh? Until I next write… continue chasing your dreams like I am.

***Also thank you for the lovely words of praise I receive from those of who who take the time to read my blog, it’s definitely acknowledged and appreciated!

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It’s been a while… since last year actually!

Happy 2018 Everyone,

What a whirlwind the start of this year has already been. But I’m back and feeling better than ever (…maybe that’s what turning 24 does to you?) Quarter life crisis *cough*. Either way, I have a new attitude towards my life, and how I’m going to take on this year ahead. No bs/neg influences: only mates, laughs, and good times yet to come!

I let go of 2017’s heavy baggage and am taking a step forward in the right direction. Sometimes things can become habit, and with that routine, and after a while you’re sucked into this tall hole of misery and doubt. So l8rs to the h8rs, and bring on the new year/new me (cliché but you dig it, really).

I’m going to cut the crap and say it how it is now: This year I’m moving back to England to smash it in a degree which I am buzzing to begin. I’m going to be reunited with my beautiful friends (god bless their souls – where would we be without them?). I’m going to pick up the ole’ guitar and start jamming again. Pencils and paints will be at the ready, too. Nothing’s going a miss this year and I cannot bloomin’ wait.

You live this life only once: fucking smash it. That’s what I plan to do.

Until next time, stay classy!

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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I look forward to 2018 and what it brings with it (which I plan to keep you all updated on!)

A couple photos from Down Under, enjoying my Christmas break!

Until next year, much love…

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Hi everyone,

For those of you who have been waiting for me to write, I’m sorry I haven’t sooner. I will be honest – I have recently been struggling to see the best in everything like I once did.

If you’ve followed my blog from the beginning you will have noticed I have a fond appreciation of the U.K. (having previously lived there for a couple of years), and due to reasons beyond my choice I had to return to Australia. I grew up in Aus, and although it’s where I’m from I don’t consider it to be “home”.

Unfortunately because of this I have been in a constant state of mind where I am wishing to be anywhere but here (not that there’s anything wrong with ‘here’, it’s just not for me).

When I was younger I thought that in your 20’s you should have your life essentially figured out… I can assure you – I’m 23 and haven’t a CLUE what I’m doing with myself…

Life has a funny way of challenging you at the most inconvenient times, but I’m beginning to believe there’s important reasons for that.

As I approach the end of 2017 (and my mid-twenties.. eek) I have made some promises to myself that I intend to keep for the new year, and every year going forward after that (if you’re like me and get slack, let’s do it together):

  • 1. Self appreciation/love (I am the worst for this, believe it or not I lack a lot of self confidence and aim to shift it!)
  • 2. Educate + nourish the brain (I love books, learning, and gaining new skills! Often times little things in life take over and I don’t get to indulge in mentally stimulating things like I’d wish to. I also studied for several years at university and gave up – but I want to stick at it and accomplish something big!)
  • 3. Friendship + kindness (By some miracle I have been blessed with the most selfless, kindhearted and understanding friends any person could ask for. I’d be lost without them. Genuinely. I have also met each of them in the most unique of ways. There’s never a limit to how much kindness you can generate, and from this you will be surrounded by endless amounts of love.)
  • 4. Health + happiness (I cannot stress this enough. Your health is the most crucial component of your wellbeing. Going for walks, listening to music, eating healthy – with the occasional treat [or two], dancing in your bedroom [who doesn’t?!]. All of the things that make you happy – DO them. I have recently been such a sucker feeling sorry for myself whilst I sit at home scrolling on Instagram, looking at everyone live their seemingly amazing lives. What’s stopping either of us from doing the same?)
  • 5. Getting cultured! (Holidays and traveling: I will never get enough of it. When the world is as big as it is, I am so surprised when people say they’re not ‘interested’ in leaving where they’ve gone up/are from. What a lost opportunity! I crave to learn a second language, try exotic foods, and learn in person how other cultures live. If it wasn’t for my desire to travel, I never would have found myself. I plan to holiday and see as much as I can before I grow old!)

These are five key attributes I wish to live by – and I believe if I manage to do this successfully I will be eternally happy. The reason I haven’t written is because I have failed to carry out any of these points, and as a result gone so far the other way. Waking up each day and not having the motivation to do anything I enjoy is a toxic way to live, and not healthy on the mindset. But, being human, I’m working on changing it.I have a lot yet to learn, but I am excited to do so. I have high hopes that things will fall into place how they’re supposed to.

I appreciate if you’ve been patiently waiting for my next blog post – and I’m sorry it took so long! I hope this explains why I haven’t written as soon as I had hoped to.

Until next time….